So, I feel like I am at a crossroad in my life. I have made a decision. I'm going to stop worrying about things I can't control, which of course, is easier said then done. I'm tired of worrying about my job, and where I am going to be next year, or ten years from now. Instead, I'm going to leave it in his hands, which is where it needs to be. I'm going to stop being so depressed about my relationship with the person I am dating. If it was meant to happen, then it will. It is hard to not know what is going to happen, and whether or not I will get married, have kids, and that white fence. I never thought about it when I was younger......actually I always thought I never would get married, because I wasn't popular, pretty, or liked very much. Now, I have friends who are completing this faze, and I feel a little left out, so, I have decided, Let Go & Let God.
I have figured out, that there are two things I can do to change my life. First, start having a more positive outlook on life. What does anyone get from being negative? Nothing. So, I am going to try and find the positive in each, and everyday. Second, I'm going to try and get my weight down. I have a 2 year deadline. What could that deadline be? Well, my 10 year high school reunion. I have gained 100 pounds since high school....actually, I think it is more like 120, and that just isn't cool.
So, that's what I am going to do. I can't control when/who/if I will get married, but I can focus on being happy with who I am, and the biggest thing I can do, to make me happy, is to work on the weight.
Okay, off to take a shower and weigh myself so I have a starting number to work with. I'll post my accomplishments on here for everyone to check on. Wish me luck!
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You go girl! We all have our struggles and the first way to start getting over a "problem" is to admit that we have one!
Let me just also say that I have plenty of experience in the boy arena, just ask anyone in ADX. Yeah, seriously, too much drama for me even though it was fun and I gleaned lots from each relationship. I remember wondering about all those things too and then I started being content in my singleness and using that time for the Lord. Then, poof, here came Ryan. I even said no to him because I was enjoying being single even though my heart longed to be loved.
Let God use you how He sees best fit. Whether it includes a boy or not. More or less pounds, our goal should ultimately be to best serve Him. Keep your head up, it won't be easy to drop weight!
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